{"product_id":"the-death-of-a-complex-aceo","title":"The Death of a Complex – Original ACEO Miniature Oil Painting","description":"\u003cp\u003e\u003cem\u003eThe Death of a Complex\u003c\/em\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eOn a balmy spring day in 1970, at a school assembly at St. Dorothy's Catholic School in Glendora, California, a seven-year-old girl received an award for being \u003cem\u003eperfect\u003c\/em\u003e at something.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eAttendance.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eShe had nothing to do with it, of course. She just did as she was told, got in the car, and ended up at school. Technically, this award belongs to her mom — at that time, a functioning barbiturate abuser and alcoholic, carrying around the massive weight of an unlived life.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eNevertheless, it became a harbinger. The first dangling carrot in a long line of dangling carrots she would chase for decades — like a hungry greyhound running around a track, performing robotically for the benefit of others.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eThat is, until she finally understood what she was actually doing.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003ePerfectionism is a trauma response. It shows up alongside its evil twin, people-pleasing, and an unconscious compulsion to control absolutely everything — when you grow up in a chaotic environment and have been conditioned into terror of making a mistake, for fear of accidentally activating the barely-controlled rage of two extremely narcissistic, alcoholic, pill-popping parents.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eI found this award a few weeks ago. It’s approximately 55 years old. I have no idea how it survived all the moves and losses of my life. I look at it as synchronicity — I knew exactly what it represented the moment it showed up.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eSo I painted it.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eAnd then, as an act of pure rebellion, I walked away from this painting even though I knew the tiny mistake in it would trigger some people.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eIt would have triggered me too, once.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eNot anymore.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eThis is what the death of a complex looks like. Small. Quiet. Painted in oils on a 2.5” x 3.5” card. Framed and finished and \u003cem\u003edone.\u003c\/em\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eI choose myself.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e\u003cstrong\u003eOriginal ACEO miniature painting\u003c\/strong\u003e · Oil on card · 2.5\" x 3.5\"\u003cbr\u003e\u003cstrong\u003eAvailable unframed or framed in your choice of size and color. All framed works include acid-free archival quality matting in Gallery White, acid-free backing board, UV protecting crystal clear plexiglass, and a sawtooth hanger. Framing suggestions shown are personally curated by the artist.\u003c\/strong\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e","brand":"Bella's Inner Child","offers":[{"title":"Unframed and Unmatted","offer_id":47541251997874,"sku":null,"price":220.0,"currency_code":"USD","in_stock":true},{"title":"Matted \u0026 Framed 9x11 exterior size with 5x7 opening - White","offer_id":47541251735730,"sku":null,"price":295.0,"currency_code":"USD","in_stock":true},{"title":"Matted \u0026 Framed 9x11 exterior size with 5x7 opening - Black","offer_id":47541251768498,"sku":null,"price":295.0,"currency_code":"USD","in_stock":true},{"title":"Matted \u0026 Framed 9x11 exterior size with 5x7 opening - Silver","offer_id":47541251801266,"sku":null,"price":295.0,"currency_code":"USD","in_stock":true},{"title":"Matted \u0026 Framed 9x11 exterior size with 5x7 opening - Gold","offer_id":47541251834034,"sku":null,"price":295.0,"currency_code":"USD","in_stock":true},{"title":"Matted \u0026 Framed 12x14 exterior size with 8x10 opening - White","offer_id":47541251866802,"sku":null,"price":295.0,"currency_code":"USD","in_stock":true},{"title":"Matted \u0026 Framed 12x14 exterior size with 8x10 opening - Black","offer_id":47541251899570,"sku":null,"price":295.0,"currency_code":"USD","in_stock":true},{"title":"Matted \u0026 Framed 12x14 exterior size with 8x10 opening - Silver","offer_id":47541251932338,"sku":null,"price":295.0,"currency_code":"USD","in_stock":true},{"title":"Matted \u0026 Framed 12x14 exterior size with 8x10 opening - Gold","offer_id":47541251965106,"sku":null,"price":295.0,"currency_code":"USD","in_stock":true}],"thumbnail_url":"\/\/cdn.shopify.com\/s\/files\/1\/0775\/1254\/0338\/files\/Perfect_Attendance.jpg?v=1780261717","url":"https:\/\/belladisruptorstudio.com\/products\/the-death-of-a-complex-aceo","provider":"Bella's Inner Child","version":"1.0","type":"link"}